What Will Your Life Look Like In A Year?
“What will your life look like in a year?”
This is the question I rumble around in my noggin when I’m debating choices, when I’m not digging what life is throwing at me or when I’m in a plain ol’ funk. I find that slowing my thinking and taking that step back really puts things into perspective for me. I stop obsessing about inconsequential issues, I can see the bigger picture. I am able to envision a future and “backward plan”. I let go of things that don’t matter. This “finding my center” activity is something I have come to rely on as a coping mechanism in times of stress and anxiety. It gives me something tangible to focus on and put my energy toward.
“What will your life look like in a year?”
Turns out, each time I asked myself that question in 2019 I was waaaaay off base. Never did I suppose that I’d be staring down the barrel of a school year in a silo. I could not have predicted that my colleagues and I would be swapping links for comfortable masks, face shields, industrial sized sanitizer, scrubs, and spacing ropes. In no stretch of the imagination did I think we would be comparing notes on safety measures and virtual teaching pedagogy. I had no need to watch a “how-to” video on DIY document cameras or virtual worksheets. I wouldn’t have guessed I would need professional development on teaching during a pandemic. Our entire world has been flipped on its axis and my coping mechanism has fallen to pieces.
“What will your life look like in a year?”
I don’t know. I can’t seem to imagine anything past a week from now. Decisions are changing at the speed of light and I’m exhausted from trying to keep up. I don’t know what my life will look like in a month let alone a year. But, maybe this isn’t new. Did I ever really “know” what a year in the future would look like? Maybe there is silver-lining to the unknowing. The present is a pretty great place to live when you let yourself go there. When you release the “what ifs” and put energy toward the “right nows” your sense of values shift. Productivity, money, achievement, power will fade into health, relationships, contentedness, passion, laughter. Allow yourself to find the balance.
“What will your life look like in a year?”
Barring any physically altering accidents in 2021 I will still have a beating heart, a critically thinking brain, two strong legs and a will that doesn’t quit. I will have the love of family and the goodwill of friends. I will have 31 years of life experiences that I can rely on to drive me forward. I will have faith in my soul and ambition in my veins. Should there be a continuation of this contamination, a wildfire of woes or a pitfall of politicians I will be okay. You will be okay. For what is life if not an opportunity to outshine the rain?